Up and down and back again

Some days are better than others. I'm restless at the moment, and I realised I have been for a while. I've just been too busy in my head with mainly my thesis to really take notice before. Since I finished my thesis last month however, I’ve started noticing. I don't know what I want, what I’m doing, what I'm looking for, and sometimes life feels very complicated. And I'm so very tired. All the time. For the past two or three weeks at least - maybe even longer - I've been waking up with a headache almost every day. The kind of headache that doesn't really make your head hurt, but is there lingering in the background all the same. Usually it disappears as the day progresses and is gone by lunch time, but it's there again almost every morning upon waking. My well-being feels very fragile at the moment, and I’m taking it day by day. One day I may put on a happy face that might actually be the real deal the next. Sometimes even I can't really tell the difference. And half the time I don’t know where the restless feeling is coming from. All I know is that it’s there and it’s making my days very unpredictable. I can tell you that yesterday was a good day, I can also tell you today is not so much. We’ll see about tomorrow.

But anyway, finding distractions seems to be the way to go right now. It’s always good to go out and catch up with friends or buy lots of new clothes or have random movie/series nights at home with the roomies :) I won’t go into more detail about what I’ve been up to this time, but there are just a few photos of the past few weeks below. I also did a huge big clean-up of my room the other week based on the philosophy that a cluttered room causes a cluttered head and therefore cleaning one of the two would also automatically clear up the other. Plus it was just very necessary, haha, as the layer of dust on my shelves reminded me on a daily basis. It was so nice to have a squeaky clean room for a day or two :) Then life and all its stuff slowly but steadily cluttered my desk and my floor once more and by now the squeaky cleanness is definitely gone again. Oh well, what can you do…

So that’s all for today. Just a short update this time, lucky you :) I always love to hear from you too, however short or long… Maybe reading about what you all have been up to could be another one of my distractions :) Either way, I hope you’re all happy and healthy and I’m sending you my love.
xx Carine